30-something mama, wife, professional, runner-wannabe

My world is like no other. I'm as imperfect as they come, but I won't stop striving for that unattainable perfection. And yes, it becomes my downfall more often than I'd like. But I'm human and I really do have a great life, so I try to keep that in perspective (ok, at least somewhere within my peripheral vision anyway).



Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Tag team back again!

So, do you ever think your kids conspire against you?  Even if one of them can't really talk yet?  I think my kids conspire to not let me get any sleep.  They tag team me. Truly.  For the first few nights of this week Lucas was the one crying out & waking me up in the middle of the night.  Last night, Lucas sleeps all night, but at 4am I hear, "Mommy!  ....  Mommy!"  coming from Jocelyn's room.  Her leg hurt (growing pains).  So, in a clouded huff I stumbled to the kitchen, poured the 2 teaspoons of Tylenol necessary, a small glass of milk & stumbled back to her room.  Gave her the meds & drink, chastised her for waking up & told her to go back to sleep as she turned on her tv.  Annoyed, I then tossed and turned for about 45 minutes while telling the dog multiple times to get off the bed (oh yeah, one 6'3" adult, one 5'4" adult & one 100lb Labrador do not fit well in a queen size bed...just in case anyone was wondering).  I finally fell asleep only to be shot out of bed when the alarm went off at 6am.  Yes, wonderful start to my day.

The day.....the meat & potatoes.....eh, same 'ol, same 'ol.  So much going on at work.  I feel so behind & so buried.  I hate that feeling.  I have over 600 emails in my inbox.  Unheard of for me.  It drives me nuts.  But, tomorrow is another day right?!  Yeah, that optimistic junk only gets me so far.  lol

We ordered in for dinner because I had to stay later for work and now, at almost 8:00pm we're all in our jammies watching 'Garfield'.  Jocelyn wants to play a game of Mastermind.....time for some fun! :)

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Happy New Year!! 2012 is present & accounted for

Happy New Year!  A new year.....already?!  Ok, fine.  I can come to grips with that.  In many ways I'm ok with putting another year behind us.  I'm looking forward to a fresh start.  But, this year is going to be scary.  Probably the scariest year of my adult life (and after having 2 difficult pregnancies and not knowing what the next day would bring, that's pretty scary).  Many changes are due to come our way.....will get into them all later, but our world is soon to be changed.  So, I'm bracing myself, digging in and will roll with what comes.

So anyway, after a hectic, but pleasant holiday season, 2012 is here.  We spent New Years' Eve doing the same thing we've done for the last several years (probably 6 years, since Jocelyn was born).....we stayed home, played some games, ate shrimp & pizza and laughed a lot.  Jocelyn got a Connect 4 Launchers game for Christmas - lets just say the adults enjoyed it more than she did.  I had a few 'torched cherries' (cherry rum & coke) and was feeling nice.  My Connect 4 skills are awesome, if I do say so myself.  Matt was none too pleased that I kicked his butt several times. :)

Jocelyn tried to stay up until midnight, but ended up falling asleep at 11:00 - so close!  Matt & I watched the ball drop, had some champagne and watched some of the New Years' Rockin' Eve acts.  The cold that we've all been fighting for weeks felt it necessary to make it's presence known again and I had a non-stop cough upon trying to go to sleep.  I had one of those tickles in my throat that you just want to scratch with a wire grill brush.  I made my way to the couch to avoid keeping Matt awake, attempted water & used honey and just finally passed out at some point after the coughing convulsions subsided.  Of course, I was asleep for maybe all of a half hour before Lucas started crying.  I crawled into bed with him, got him settled & I suppose fell asleep at some point.  It doesn't feel like I slept though.  Not.One.Bit. 

So today I'm an ultra-lazy butt.  I even took a nap on the couch (not sure how I managed that).  I just have zero energy.  There is so much I could be doing and I find the guilt creeping in every now & then, but it is nice just to sit and do nothing for once.  Plus, there's always tomorrow.  One more day off before it's back to the grind....back to the daily routine.  Lovely.  Ok, I'm done thinking about that.  Matt is treating us to lasagna tonight and I'm hoping it's to bed early for everyone.

I need to start running again.....tomorrow night is it.  I cannot fall off the wagon again.  I know I feel so much better when I run.  This will be the year to stick to it.  No excuses.