30-something mama, wife, professional, runner-wannabe

My world is like no other. I'm as imperfect as they come, but I won't stop striving for that unattainable perfection. And yes, it becomes my downfall more often than I'd like. But I'm human and I really do have a great life, so I try to keep that in perspective (ok, at least somewhere within my peripheral vision anyway).



Friday, September 23, 2011

Struggles

Not sure where to turn lately.  I'm struggling to come to grips with Jocelyn's behavior.  She turns on a dime and goes from my sweet baby girl to a raging ball of anger.  I feel broken.  I feel like I'm somehow causing it, but don't know how.  I feel like maybe I've been too easy on her until now and she just expects things to go her way.  I feel confused.  I don't know how to help her.  We had a horrible battle last night that resulted in me removing her tv from her room and losing my composure.  Nothing seems to make a dent in her attitude.  She doesn't understand that she has to follow the rules.  I've failed as a parent in making sure she has had discipline.

So where do we go from here?  I'm trying to sort that out.  I just don't know.  It sickens me that we struggle as we do.  Heck, this morning we had another battle before taking her to daycare.  I want it to stop.  It NEEDS to stop.  It's not fair to her or anyone else in our family.  I'm trying to do some research and am hoping to find some good advice and guidance for getting through this.